I was not really going to lj, but I wanted to show off my new icon? Yes, it's Adam Pascal and Idina Menzel, because I am apparently 15 years old again? I made Tara listen to Chess, and now she is just as obsessed with it as I am, and all we do is talk about Bobby Fischer and Adam Pascal anymore. It's weird but kind of great? I don't know, you guys. We are going to stage two versions of Chess - one with Newroger as Freddie, Seb as Anatoly, Raul Esparza as the Arbiter, Matt Caplan as Molokov, and Adam Lambert as Florence, and the other with Gerard Way as Freddie, Pete Wentz as Anatoly, Mikeyway as Florence, Patrick as Svetlana, and Ryan Ross as the Arbiter. Like, we actually sat down and had this discussion.

Speaking of Ryan Ross, I am pretty sad about Panic! My world isn't totally shaken by it, but... yeah, I'm bummed. I am interested to see what Brendon and Spencer do, though, and who they hire to replace Ryan and Jon. I am also interested to see what Ryan and Jon's project ends up being, because I suspect that it is going to be unfiltered crazyass Ryan Ross, and that will be great!

Yeahhhhh, fuckin' X-men: Evo is on my tv! So excited. This entry is great, it's the gayest. It's the one where you find out that Mystique is Kurt's mom and then he and fucking Quicksilver have a fight at the mall? Like, I don't know. I just remember it being the absolute gayest because Kurt and Pietro were my otp. No, that's a lie, Kurt and Scott were my otp. No, that's a lie too, ALL THE GIRLS/EACH OTHER were my otp, for real. Like, the best part in the entire series is when Tabby comes in and Amara is totally gay for her and Jean is like NO AMARA but then she falls in love with Tabby too? So they decide to become vigilantes and they wear these weird leather outfits and dance around? And then Rogue and Kitty decide to tag along as well. This actually happened, it was a real episode. There was a song about girl power. They had a montage. I love this show.

I bought this wallet today in black? Kind of cute. There are fucking birds on it. I'm excited.

ALSO THIS IS NOT THE EPISODE WITH THE GAY FIGHT AT THE MALL. I mean, I think they have a gay fight and it is technically at the mall construction site, but Toad and Blob and fucking Lance Alvers (LOL AVALANCHE) are there too, so it doesn't count.

OH OK I just googled "x-men evolution mall fight" and immediately found what episode I was thinking of. I can't believe I am dedicating an entire entry to this. Apparently it is when Wanda shows up. I don't know why I remember it being like this major Kurt/Pietro thing. I mean, I was 16 so everything was like some giant slash thing, but whatever. I'm just going to stop talking now.

I was going to say that this week could not get worse, but a) it probably could and I don't want to jinx myself and b) it is technically a new week, so I guess I should try to be positive? I don't know, you guys. Between being broke and working all the time (HOW DO THOSE TWO GO TOGETHER, I DON'T KNOW) and Megan dying and Tara not being here still, I am just like, everything can suck my fucking dick right now. Give me a fucking break, world.

I just tried to look some guy I work with up on facebook, but got distracted by the page of this guy I used to know from Kids N Co? My friend Sammy was in love with him when we were 14, and I think a bunch of people told me he was gay? Once, Carly, Sammy, Robert and I were playing truth or dare over the phone (I don't know) and people kept choosing dare, but that is shitty because you can't really do dares over the phone, so instead we changed it to truth or pineapple and by pineapple I mean have buttsex with Daniel. THIS IS A TRUE STORY. He looks like this now, and apparently worked for the HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL ON ICE tour.

Anyway. I was going to lj last night about how one of the 19 million Disney channels that I get is showing X-men: Evolution every night all summer, but then I realized that that is probably only exciting to me. I was completely obsessed with it when I was... 16? The summer before my senior year of high school. Yikes. I doubt I will insist on watching it every night, but it is possible that I will look up the schedule so I can watch all my favorite episodes (aka the ones that feature all the girls being totally gay for each other because they totally are).

Ok, know how sometimes (ok, all the time) I get really obsessive about music and listen to the same things over and over again? My current obsession is Chess the musical. I know, right? And it's the version with Idina Menzel, Josh Groban, and Adam Pascal, which is weird because I am not really fond of any of them in any other context. But it's pretty much all I've listened to for the past few days! When I was like 15, I found a Chess t-shirt at the thrift store and was obsessed with it because: why would you write a musical about chess? And then I realized that it was by Tim Rice and the guys from ABBA and I thought that was awesome because: why would Tim Rice and the guys from ABBA write a musical about Chess? And THEN I realized that One Night in Bangkok is my favorite song in the world and I AM NOT EVEN EXAGGERATING ABOUT THAT. I know you think I am but I seriously love that song. I don't know why except that is is just Freddie (who is based on Bobby Fischer) being an asshole to everyone. PS that is the plot to the entire musical. Legit. They actually wrote a musical about what an enormous dick Bobby Fischer was.

OH OK DID YOU GUYS KNOW THAT BOBBY FISCHER WAS FUCKING CRAZY? Because he totally was! Like, I kind of already knew that, but then I was reading his wikipedia entry last night, and FOR REAL, he was actual fucking crazy. Apparently in 1992 he broke the law by... playing a chess game in Yugoslavia? And he was like, fuck you, I'm fleeing the country! Also he was an enormous anti-semite! Even though he was half-Jewish! After 9/11, he gave a radio interview where he was like, THIS IS AWESOME I WANT TO KILL ALL THE JEWS! Why would you even interview him about that, I don't know. Also he was married to a Japanese lady, which I do not find surprising in the least.

Aaaaaand now that I have told you ALL ABOUT BOBBY FISCHER AND HOW HE WAS TOTALLY CRAZYPANTS (photographic evidence!) I guess I'm going to go to bed or something? No, that's a lie, I'm actually probably to going to google Bobby Fischer again. It's cool, I'll let you know if I find anything exciting.

ETA OK HERE ARE YOUR B FISCH UPDATES:
This article from the Atlantic is really interesting and also I wish he was still alive so I could listen to his crazypants radio show ALL THE TIME. This is a pamphlet that he wrote about the time he was arrested for looking like a homeless person (warning: annoying midi set to auto-play). Here are two pictures of him looking like a crazy homeless person! Never change, Bobby.

It is disgustingly hot right now, and I am ridiculously tired because Tara and I had to wake up at 8am this morning so she could go to the airport. She's gone now, which is crazy sad, but this last week has been so much fun. We did a ton of shopping, sat around comparing freckles instead of going to Denver, took a day trip to Carlsbad Caverns, ate too much and regretted it most of the time, adopted a bat and named him Gerard, went to about 50 different stores looking for Adam Lambert's issue of Rolling Stone (no luck, what the hell?), watched almost all of seasons one and two of 30 Rock, watched Rent: Live on Bway (which was wonderful) and Rent: the Movie (which was seriously way worse than either of us remembered, and we ended up turning it off halfway through Act 2), hung out with my dog a lot, and saw Drag Me to Hell last night with Anthony! I'm sad that she's gone now, and I'm sad that I have to go back to like, work, and my shitty boring life. Sorry that I've not been ljing a lot recently; I just realized that my last entry was from May! You can blame Tara if you want to.

Man, I am crazy fucking tired right now. I had to work at 7am this morning, but I decided last night to stay up to watch Kris and Adam on Best Week Ever? I mean, totally worth it, but I got like... maybe five hours of sleep last night, and then I took a nap this afternoon, so I am kind of a zombie right now. Anthony and I are going to see Up tonight, though! Did I mention that he's here? Anthony's here! I guess it's been a week since I've updated, whoops. I am pretty excited for the movie, though.

Um, what else is new? Oh, I started watching True Blood! I was not sure if I would really enjoy it or not, but I actually am! So that's fun. I'm also still in the process of cleaning my room, which is... slow and arduous, to say the least. I decidede that I wanted to paint two of my bookshelves, but I haven't had a chance to yet, so half of my shit is put away and the other half is still all in boxes. Hopefully I can finish it before Friday which is wheeeeeeen (DUN DUN DUN) _morning_glow gets here! I get a Taraaaaaa and you don't, so... yeah, suck on that internet.

You guys, I am pretty excited about things right now. Anthony gets here TOMORROW, Robert Anderson gets here on the first (Note: Robert Anderson is my gay twin who recently decided to move to Vienna and I haven't seen in a year) (also I have no idea why I have taken to referring to him by his full name, I don't even know any other Roberts), and then _morning_glow gets here on the fifth! That is a pretty great combination of people to be in El Paso at one time.

I had fully intended to write an entry yesterday celebrating Morrissey's 50th birthday and my lj's 8th anniversary, but somehow it slipped my mind! So, you know, happy birthday to both of them! I'd do a Morrissey picspam, but I am too lazy. If you are so inclined, you can go back and look at this date in years past. Yesterday was also Saint Rita of Cascia's feast day, which is worth noting because she is the patron saint of impossible or lost causes. My birthday doesn't have any interesting saints associated with it, which is kind of disappointing. Saint Euplius was beheaded for owning a bible, which is kind of tame as far as saints go.

I have to work at 9am tomorrow, why am I still awake? Probably because I just spent like 15 minutes reading about saints, and also probably because there is so much shit on my bed, and I am not looking forward to moving it all. MY LIFE.

I had to work tonight, so I didn't get to watch Idol! I am taking it on faith that Adam was awesome, and have been voting since I got home. I am going to download the actual show tomorrow so I can watch it before the finale, since this is the first time ever that I have actually liked both contestants enough to watch the show on my own time. Becuase HEY, remember how they're both totally awesome? I don't feel like Kris has the power to beat Adam, but even if he does, it is nbd, because I like them both a lot.

What else is up? Not a lot. If they can squeeze me in, I am getting my hair cut tomorrow, and even if they can't, I am definitely going on Thursday or Friday. I haven't cut my hair since... August? That is pretty sad. I'm probably going to cut like 4 inches off, and I am PSYCHED. Also, hey, _morning_glow is going to be here in like 2 weeks! Can you believe that shit? I need to finish cleaning my room so a) she has somewhere to sleep and b) does not die of allergies in the process.

Oh! I watched it last week, but hopefully the rest of you watched Glee tonight so we can talk about how awesome it is! Because, you guys, it is CRAZY AWESOME. My favorite character is, predictably, Kurt.

Also, the whole time I have been writing this, I've had my cell phone balanced on top of my rack, so that is is close enough to hear, but so I can have both hands free to type. I'm a classy lady, what can I say?

( idol happened! )

I was going to complain about how I have to work 10-5 tomorrow, but then I realized that I should be counting my blessings because this week is inventory week, and I totally got out of doing it. 10am is preferable to 4am, always!

Fyi, Bloody Bloody Andrew Jackson (everybody's favorite emo rock musical about Andrew Jackson!) is currently playing at the Public Theatre. You should go see it because I can't, and that is making me really sad.

YOU GUYS. Who has seen Star Trek? I know a lot of people have, but I am way too lazy to figure out who and go back and look through people's entries, so TALK TO ME. I saw it yesterday with my mom and SPOILER: it was amazing. I got really sick in the middle of it, so I missed some parts, but even if it were not for that, I would want to go see it again!

In conclusion:

You're welcome.

Right now I am: eating Ritz crackers with peanut butter and listening to Santogold. THE LIFE.

( let's talk about idol I guess )

So, in officially in ONE MONTH, _morning_glow is going to be here! She's going to be here in my HOUSE! I am getting so excited just thinking about it, because it is going to be totally amazing.

Speaking of things that happen in a month, Tony noms were today! Tara texted me this morning about Constantine Maroulis being nominated, and I totally thought she was kidding, but she WASN'T. Constantine has a Tony nom, y'all! This is like when Steven Lynch got nominated, except BETTER, because it's motherfucking CONSTANTINE. Can you imagine living a world where he has a Tony? And Raul Esparza doesn't? I hope they both win and Karen wins Best Supporting Actress, because those are kind of the only things I care about this season. I tried listening to Next to Normal last week, and while I would probably pay money to go see it, that is just a terrible cast album! It was so boring, and it doesn't seem like a boring show. Some things just don't translate well to recording, which is unfortunate. Sorry, N2N!

AUGH. I had to take my cat to the vet (he has kitty herpes) and now I am completely covered in cat hair. Like, I could knit a fucking sweater out of it. He was very good, though, and didn't even pee on anything.

Man, I can't believe I didn't even lj the other day when my neighbor's house almost burned down! Guess what, livejournal, my neighbor's house almost burned down! It was super exciting (I can say that because the fire did not actually reach their house and everyone was ok)!

( and now some vaguely spoilery thoughts about heroes and american idol )

OH HAY THERE. The only reason I am really writing this entry is because I am procrastinating on filling out some forms that I have to run up to UTEP soon, but, you know, whatever works. So, what's new? I'm finally getting off my butt and getting ready to go back to school! I am going to try and take one class in the summer, and then three in the fall, and then I can GRADUATE! How exciting, right? For the first time, there is actually an end in sight, and I think I am ready for it. The forms that I have to fill out are about summer financial aid, so I really hope that works out, because I have zero monies of my own to pay for school. What is weird that the forms are super lo-tech: I have to print them out from the website, fill them out by hand, and then go drop them off at the financial aid office. Like everything else is online, so thanks, UTEP.

So, other than trying to get my life in order, I have not been up to a lot. I have been rewatching 30 Rock (the dvds were and maybe still are on mega-sale at Target, whoo!) and dealing with some sort of really fucked up sleep schedule. It is almost May, which is sad because that means it is going to be a year since I went and visited Tara and we saw Rent and MCR and Panic, but it's also okay because May is almost June, which is when Tara is coming to visit me! She is going to be here, in my house! And then we are going to go to Denver and see Rent, and it is going to be so much fun, and I can't wait.

Uh. I thought I had other things to lj about, but it turns out they are all about tv, so I will save them until later. How predictable!

Ok, so Tracy did this meme a while ago, and I replied to it, and then totally forgot about it until now? So, uh, icon meme!

1. Reply to this post, and I will pick six of your icons.
2. Make a post (including the meme info) and talk about the icons I chose.
3. Other people can then comment to you and make their own posts.
4. This will create a never-ending cycle of icon glee.

inlipstickred picked these for me!


by: insanity_calls
keywords: etc; BEST FRIENDS 4EVA
I swear, this is the second time I've done this meme and someone has asked about this icon, and I have nothing interesting to say because this icon has no meaning. It is a yeti and a skier! They are bffs!


keywords: ameridol; constantine & elli
OH MY GOD YOU GUYS. Ok, so back in the day when I was in the Rent fandom, someone discovered the website of this guy Elli, who called himself THE KING OF BROADWAY. He was this middle aged Jewish guy, and he took stage door pictures with all our favorite Rent castmembers (also Whoopi Goldberg!) and we were obsessed with him and we all had icons of him and everything. Anyway, this is him and Constantine Maroulis because I love Constantine, no fucking lie.


Keywords: bsg; mister vice president
You know what is going to be awesome? When I finally catch up with Battlestar Galactica and have an excuse to use this icon again! I am a terrible fan, fyi, because I did not see any of the last season. SOME DAY. Um, so this is Gaius Baltar. He just wants a nap! This is how I feel a lot of the time, so it is useful for that.


Keywords: holly; candybar's most hated crew
So you might not know this, but I am KIND OF A BIG DEAL in the world of candybar dolls. Pretty impressive, right? Basically in my spare time, I compete in/judge fake modeling competitions for... you know, candybar dolls. Shut up, it's fun. I AM A BIG DEAL. This is my character, Holly Bennett, sometimes known as Holly Horror. She is currently in the top 2 at candybarmodels! SHUT UP.


Keywords: john adams; oh thomas you're so fine
Thomas Jefferson is my homeboy.


By: iconzicons
Keywords: spiderman; if i catch you i'm gonna fuck you
Spiderman Comics by Jay Pinkerton. Honestly, if these don't make you laugh, we can't be friends anymore. That's just the way it is, man, I'm sorry.

god, I cannot do html when it is this late.

( H'OK SO. IDOL. )

Apparently Adam and Zefron and Vanessa went out to dinner together, THANK YOU JESUS.

In conclusion, this is precious.

I want Zac Efron and Adam Lambert to touch each other. Not, like, inappropriately (although if they want to go there, I would not stop them), I just want them to like... rough-house, maybe? Or one of them could pet the other's hair lovingly. I just want them to be bros. Who like to touch each other, I guess. I feel comfortable telling you this, livejournal, because I feel like we are friends.

This picture makes me sad because I would have also settled for Zefron/Kris touching, and yet I got neither. Zefron said in an interview that Adam is his favorite, though, so that has got to count for something, right?

( this is where my mind wanders when idol is as boring as it was this week )

Also, duh, I saw Morrissey last night. He was amazing, The Courteeners are adorable, I danced like an asshole, I love him, the end.

Goddamn me for deleting it! My lj was started on May 22, 2001, which was the end of my freshman year of high school, so if I had to guess... it probably would have been about how much I hated Chelsea. Oh, and Gundam Wing. I am pretty sure those were my two main interests in 2001.

Oh my god, my feets are killing me. You would think that wearing sneaker to work would make them hurt less, but apparently that is not true.

I swear to god, except for maybe twice, every single time I have worked for the last month, I have been on the mens registers by myself for the majority of my shift, if not the entire thing. I AM GETTING TIRED OF IT. If they try to put me there tomorrow, I will scream.

I got a new phone! It is a purple Samsung Rant and I am pretty in love with it. My old phone was functional, but not exactly flashy, so yaaaaaay fancy phone! I have a new number, and I think everyone who needs it should already have it, but let me know.

I SEE MORRISSEY ON TUESDAY. I have already mentioned this, but I am crazy fucking excited for it, so whatever.

Um. What else? I kind of had a mini nervous breakdown on Wednesday night/yesterday, so... that was fun. It ended up being ok, though, because once I stopped crying and pulling my hair out (not a metaphor) I got a bunch of shit done re: UTEP? I have to go in sometime next week to talk to an adviser, but unless my calculations are completely off, I think I only need 12 more hours, which means that, barring my going completely insane again, I can graduate by December! Whoda thunk it, right?